Why Exactly?

Well, why exactly am i here?

Am I here to vent frustration, speak my mind, ask for help?
No, im here merely to inform you of everything that happens in my life,
why you should care I dont know, but hey, dont like it? then deal with it.
Its odd how people can try to hide their true selves, out of pure fear of
some kind of reaction from the people around you, but youve got to realise,
not everyone is what they seem, everybody's hiding something from the
world, and its not your job to find out. Would I really feel any better knowing
a friend of mine is a slut? No, of course i wouldnt! Theyre still the same person
I know and love, and I honestly hope they never change.

Another thing, somebody asks you why you didnt tell them something before, and you
dont know what that something is, what should you do? Well, ask them obviously, but when
you do, what response do you expect? Them lying and saying it nicely so as not to hurt you?
Or the cold, harsh truth, that will make you feel bad? Of course not, you dont get either, just a
'oh, nevermind' well, if it bothers you that much, tell me what it is? Oh, whats that? It doesnt matter? Well, bringing me to the brink of suicide, reducing me to tears and making me not able to sleep at night doesnt matter either? I love you too.

Well, im still in a dilema with Catherine, she wants me to meet her new boyfriend, Scott. Brilliant! Shall i bring along champagne and we can both discuss how we love you? Or would that be a tad awkward? Christ, what goes on in some peoples heads does make me wonder.

But hey, the world keeps on spinning and so must i, i need sleep, but im not gonna sleep. Yknow why? Because im terrified of waking up again, I feel that if i fall out of this world for a few hours, itll move on without me. So anyways, I'll keep up these blog posts as often as i can.

I love you all, thats right, all of you.
I dont want anything back, making the world happy is what im here for,
seeing all of you happy is the best reward I could possibly ask for.

Until next time, peace out.